Sometimes I feel like The Mandalorian: hunting for my next job. Sometimes I feel like a hooker: standing on a street corner, wearing my nicest clothes and a big smile, hoping for the next beau to pick me up.
Today is Monday, September 22, 2025. The first day of autumn. I’m in the same place I’ve been before. Hunting and hoping. Why did this happen? How did I get here again?
My contract was supposed to last until the end of December. That’s what they told me. Last Tuesday, they told me something different. They told me my last day would be Friday, Sept 19th. Isn’t that interesting? Most companies and corporations require a 2 week notice. Seems hypocritical that they don’t need to honor their own customs.
It feels a little stressful to scramble, looking for work. I’ve done it before. There are ways to keep my head above water temporarily while searching, but when things like this happen, I feel so lost. It takes a lot of mental fortitude to stay focused, with purpose and direction. Seems as though the same has to happen while employed as well.
I’m currently on the lookout for a user experience/user interface or product design position. I’ve been in this field since 2012. I’ve learned a lot and made a lot of connections. Unfortunately, I’ve also had my fair share of not so pleasant experiences. A lot of work has been completed for many people. I’m at the point where I’m not sure where I want to go or what I want to do.
Designer David Carson said, “If money wasn’t an issue, would you do that same work? And if you would, you’ve got a great job. And if at some point, you’re independently wealthy, would you still do that same work? And if you would, that’s a great job. You know, you’re gonna be dead a long time. Find that thing.”
I don’t know if I’ve found that thing yet. I feel like I should have by now. I just turned 48. You’d think I’d have things figured out by now. What if I change career paths? Some might say it’s too late for that. What would I do instead? What am I interested in? What can I make a decent living at? How do I want to spend my time for the rest of my life? How long do I have? What do I want?
There’s a lot to think about. There are many big time decisions to make. There are so many paths and so many destinations.
